Everything was alright in the beginning before she started her job, but now that she is working, things are completely different. All she does is eat, sleep, work, go home and do it all over again, but what went wrong? In the beginning, she was happy, but now she is tired all of the time with no strength to do the things she enjoy doing.
Time comes and fly by, and before she knows it, it’s time for her to leave again to help those who are out at night until the next day. Some days she is sad to the point she is holding back tears. She feels that she will never really get to do all of the things she was hired to do, so she is about to lose interest in all of it.
Her nights are filled with different problems and personalities, but it’s nothing that she cannot handle. She is strong, smart, and hard-working, it’s noticed by all who comes in contact with her. She smiles through her sadness, hurt, and pain, but only she and her God knows this, so what went wrong?
She is sad. Her heart is broken because the love is gone. There’s no joy when she returns home. No hugs and kisses to greet her as she walks through the door. No I missed you. No I’m glad you’re here with me again. No how was your night. Sleep, but no dreams. She looks forward to hearing from her baby; that always brightens her heart and makes her smile. Sometimes she cries because she just don’t know what to think about it all. She has come to the point to where she just doesn’t care about it anymore.
Foul words shattered her heart, and soul to the core of her being. Seeing what she saw shattered everything within her and she has not felt the same way since. It is something she will never forget nor let go of. It cannot be unsaid and it can’t be undone. She cried for days on end; every time she thinks about it, it hurts even more. She voiced how she felt about it all. Her eyes see things differently now, and her heart feels the pain that it brings from the words brought from the depths of the soul from whence they came. Still, this is what went wrong, all the way wrong!
She will remain strong. She will not let anything stop her from being successful.©2022
To her success!
Diva's Journal 