Thinking About My Future

I am not getting any younger, and I want to have something of my own. I cannot sit here and wait for someone to decide if they are going to make it happen for us, I feel that I cannot wait any longer. After May, I will decide what I want to do to make my life better because I am tired of struggling and wanting. It is time for me to be comfortable. I will work hard at my writing until I feel like I have something that can be published, I just may already have, but I don’t know. I would have to have someone look at my writings to tell me how to improve them, but who knows, it may be already perfect. I don’t know anyone who is a writer, and it would take money to have an editor look at my work because I have so much, and it will cost a lot of money to buy all of the ink I will need to print it all off from every site I have, and all of that I have written by hand. It will take time to find the right publishing house to send it to because I want to send it to someone who can help me, and not put my work down. I am thankful to have spell correct, and Grammarly to help me make changes to my writing so it will be professional. Maybe by the end of the year I will have enough to look through to pick out what I think is perfect enough to see if I can get it published. When that happens! it is going to be the greatest day of my life next to getting saved. I have noticed that my typing is perfect, and I have gotten faster as I type. I am glad I have my journals to write all of my ideas and thoughts in, and take notes as I brainstorm for new topics to write about. Writing for me isn’t a hobby, this is something I have wanted to do all of my life to earn a living, I guess this is why it is hard for me to focus on anything else, like working in a building somewhere, but I know I have to have money to get what I need. The days of me being broke are over, and I am starting to complete my education. I may have to use You Tube to help me learn things I don’t understand, such as the hard stuff that I have not did in a long time. I know it is going to be a challenge, but I know I can do it. I did it before, and I can do it again. I want to have my diploma before my baby comes home, and getting ready to enter college. I would like to go through high school of America like I wanted to do before, but it is so high, but maybe with the way things are now, it will not be so hard. Whatever it takes for me to get to where I want to be in my life, I am going to do it. Well, as long as I know that God is with me, I know I can do all that I set my mind to do just like I did before. He is with me, and He will help me with everything. I have a lot of time on my hands, and I cannot let depression and anxiety take over my life, and nothing else. I have to think about my future. Time is flying by and I do not want to waste any more of it doing nothing. I have given this a lot of thought these last few days, and my mind is made up. I just have to stay focused. So, until next time, deuces. ©2022