Not Having Anyone to Count On-Broken Promises

Back in the day, women could count on their loved ones to be there for them. They had someone they could trust to keep their promises to them that they would make to them. Why can’t it be like that today? Promises made are just like talking to the wind, it sounds good but it means nothing, especially when it comes from a person who doesn’t do nothing but lie from one day to the next. I watch a lot of westerns, and I see how those who were married in the shows had husbands who made promises to their wives only to break them in the long run. Some of their husbands were outlaws on the wrong side of the law running for their lives, as to there were some who were on the right side of the law, but got caught up trying to help someone out of the trouble they were in. The wives of those who were on the run worried if their husbands were going to get killed, and they worried if they would ever see them again. If there were children involved, they wanted to grow up to be just like their fathers, but they did not realize that it would only land them in trouble just like their fathers. Back then, times were rough and they did whatever they had to do to take care of their families even if it meant stealing and killing someone for what they had. It was the wrong thing to do because they were hanged if they were caught and tried by the judge in court, so they did not stand a chance in getting another chance to start over again. The wives were left alone to raise their children if they had any, but if they did not, they usually lived alone, went to live with relatives, or remarried if they met someone and fell in love. So, who could a woman count on to keep the promised made to her? Who could she count on to be there for her? Back then women had it hard. They had to do everything, some even had to do all of the work while their husbands cheated and ran around in saloons with other women getting drunk, and that was the cause of some of the killing that went on back then.

When you think about it, it still goes on today, but just in a different way. We see things that happens on television where men and women have gotten killed due to cheating. We hear about lots of things along those lines. Women were not treated right back then, just like some are not treated right today. There was abuse back then. Some of the men would beat their wives if they did not do what they wanted whether it was good or bad. Some men hid behind their wives when they were in trouble and make their wives lie for them, but in the end of it all, the wives would have to tell the truth to protect themselves and their children from harm.

When I watch westerns, I try to find things in the scenes that pertain to today, and the things that are going on right now in the world. Back then they went through pandemics, such as the plague, smallpox, malaria, scarlet fever, and lots of other things that caused them problems, and caused them their lives. There were not cures for those ailments, they either made it through it, or they perished. There were not a lot of medicine back then as we have today, they used whatever they had to work with. Now that we are faced with this pandemic that has been going on since 2020, lives have been lost, both young and old. There are vaccines, but everyone still hasn’t been vaccinated as of yet. There are still lots of people who does not trust the vaccine, but as for me, I would rather be safe and take a chance than sorry not taking the vaccine. Everyone has their own opinion about it. Maybe one day there will be a cure for it and we will not have to worry about wearing masks, and social distancing anymore. But until then we have to keep on protecting ourselves by any means necessary.


This year is going by very fast. The months are coming and going quicker than we can blink our eyes. It is as if it does not even feel like 2022. Time will not change in the fall as it usually does because of the paper that was signed by the President. I am sure it will not be any difference except the loss of one hour of sleep, he should have changed it when time went back in the Fall. It seems like we will never get that hour lost back. I cannot get my body to acclimate to this time. All is not lost though. I can still enjoy the sun in the afternoon and in the evening time. I can still enjoy seeing the flowers bloom, and the trees bud with new leaves. I can still enjoy seeing the bees going from flower to flower gathering nectar to make honey, and to pollinate every plant in their sight. But all in all, it is still beautiful outside.

Today, it was warm and sunny with a few clouds in the sky. The sounds of nature were splendid. I really don’t have to go outside to enjoy the smell of nature because I can just smell it through the windows. I can really say that I am happy today. The tears have stopped flowing, and I think everything for me is getting back to normal. I do not grieve as much as I was in the beginning, but every day is different. I am just taking it one day at a time. Well, I am cooking skinless chicken breasts in the oven, and I am going to have pasta on the side, with Pepsi Cola to drink. But for now, I am going to have some chips to snack on until my food gets done. I think I want to have some gram cracker crust for dessert, or I might make some jello later for tomorrow. I need some lemon juice for my tea. I was going to drink some coffee, but I decided not to. My food smells very good, and I cannot wait until it gets done so I can enjoy it. I thought about eating some hamburger helper with it, but I don’t know as of yet, but I will know when I fix my plate. I hope I do not end up eating this food by myself as usual. I wish my children were here to help me enjoy it. I guess that’s why I do not cook as much anymore, because it is only just two of us now. I think I will polish my nails tonight after eat. Dinner was delicious, and I mean very delicious. I always out do myself. Again, I ate alone. Well, I guess I will finish watching my movie and polish my nails after I finish laundry. The sun has gone down and tomorrow is on the way. Until next time, deuces. ©2022

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Published by Shaunelius Sterns

I have been married to my wonderful husband for 21 years now. I am a Christian, poet, singer, songwriter, and artist. I have five beautiful children. I enjoy writing and reading my Bible. I also love to pray for others. I love nature and being outside on sunny days. I love spending time with my family and watching shows that makes me laugh.

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